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Live Like You Were Dying
by Tim Mcgaw
"I was in my early forties
with a lot of life before me
and a moment came that stopped me on a dime
I spent most of the next days
Looking at the x-rays
Talkin' 'bout sweet time"
I asked him
"When it sank in
That this might really be the real end
How's it hit you
When you get that kind new?
Man, wha'd you do?"
He said
" I went skydiving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fumanchu
And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said
"Someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying"
He said
"I was finally the husband
That most of the time I wasn't
And I became a friend a friend would like to have
And all of a sudden going fishin'
Wasn't such an imposition
And I went three times that year I lost my dad
I finally read the Good Book, and I
took a good, long, hard look
At what I'd do if I could it all again
"I was in my early forties
with a lot of life before me
and a moment came that stopped me on a dime
I spent most of the next days
Looking at the x-rays
Talkin' 'bout sweet time"
I asked him
"When it sank in
That this might really be the real end
How's it hit you
When you get that kind new?
Man, wha'd you do?"
He said
" I went skydiving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fumanchu
And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said
"Someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying"
He said
"I was finally the husband
That most of the time I wasn't
And I became a friend a friend would like to have
And all of a sudden going fishin'
Wasn't such an imposition
And I went three times that year I lost my dad
I finally read the Good Book, and I
took a good, long, hard look
At what I'd do if I could it all again
I admit, for the
past months I had this feeling that I am dying. I am not afraid to die. I
know that God has prepared a place for me in heaven. A place where there will
never be crying and pain. A place for eternity where God will be the center and
my everything. I am not afraid to die but I guess I am not yet ready. Thinking
about my parents especially my mother who is very ill at this moment, it would be unbearable for her to bury a child again for the third time after the
passing of my two siblings many years ago. Thinking about my husband, how much
he will be hurt of my passing. How he will raise our three wonderful children
alone. Of course my children, my three gifts from above. My eldest is
just twelve, my second son is ten and my youngest and only daughter is just
seven. Thinking about how they will live without me. It pained me a lot
to think on their special occasions like graduations and birthdays that I
will not be there.
This month I was hospitalized due
to abdominal pain. Thankful to God that after four days in the hospital, after laboratories and medical procedures, the findings was not life
threatening. It paved a way for me to hope again and go on with my life but
this time with a new perspective. Alone in the hospital for days, gave me time
to reflect and ponder of so many things in life. Here are some of my
reflections:
- Life is a Gift from above - God created me with a purpose. Who my parents would be, my husband and how many children I may have, He designed it long ago. Where I am right now is His plan for me. He created me. He loved me. He gave me His salvation through His son Jesus Christ who died on the cross for my sins. He saved me too with a purpose. He wants me to share His love to others. He wants to use me for His honor and glory.
- Life is short and death is real – Based on 2019 data, the life expectancy of the Filipinos is 71.16 years. It means that no matter how people tried to lengthen their stay in this world, end will come and sometimes in unexpected situations. What is 71 years compared to God's eternity. We are only passers-by. Because of this reality, I treasure each moment with my loved ones. Spending quality time with them. I was also reminded to visit my friends and family who are sick to pray and encourage them. It's good to visit them while they are still alive than visiting them in their funeral. Making each moment wonderful and beautiful especially if i have the opportunity to share God's love.
- Forgive and ask forgiveness –Learned to forgive even those who are not asking forgiveness. It's really hard but I assure you, it is a wonderful feeling to be freed from bitterness and hatred.
- Spread love and kindness – more kindness and love to all. Praying that God will continue to give me more love to share and understanding to those people around me.
- Live one day at a time – Trying to live for today. Enjoying each moment and maintaining a good tract in my journey in this life. No cramming. No worries (reminding myself always) but have peace that all will be well.
- Enjoy what you are doing – I love what I'm doing right now. I love my job. I have that sense of fulfillment that I am teaching the next generation. Teaching in public school as my bread and butter and teaching as ministry in God's kingdom as where God called me first and that I am so thankful.
To really appreciate my existence, I have this in my mind to always live as if I'm dying. Not to be afraid but accept that it's life reality. All people will die. I just don't know how and when but it's for real. But if you have Christ in your life, death is the beginning of eternity with Him.
Romans 6:8-10
"He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away."
Revelations 21:4
"For me to live is CHRIST and to die is gain."
Philippians. 1:21
